Sunday, November 21, 2010

Window to Me


Thinking up new words, peeling strips
of birch from the trunk.  Maypole
in the woods, ribbons made of
nature.  I will turn to butter if I
spin. I am gladly aware that there is 
neither late nor early. Still, I am
running round the tree, looking 
for the entrance into us.  I hop, gallop 
and walk, adjusting my stride 
for resonance, listening for the 
matching hum of destiny.  You and
I are somewhere in the mystery, captured 
for the moment, and held in staggered 
dimensions. Sleuth of invisible time.
Such is my clever way to humor Fate.  I am 
only pretending to look for you. I want 
to have a story to tell, something to 
make you laugh when you arrive.  The 
synchronicity appears with neither lag
nor hurry.  Here we go round and round.

Soul Rings

Past ghosts,
hello.
How many exorcisms shall you want?
With every cleansing, there’s a
respite.  A valley of peace, an
island of hope.  A plumbed
depth, and then.  Eureka
and seeing,
hello.
You do not like to leave me long.
I am so very missable, for those
whose presence I will not
pine.  My body is warm,
a good oven.  Yet I
surrender and softly sweep
you spectres out,
goodbye.
Patience borne of sorrow,
I guide you gently.  Quieter
grace, nearer to the
knowing, more room
for imperfect flow.  
There is a welcome breathing
hello, goodbye.

Pauli Particle Principle and Tea

Because of the Pauli Particle Principle,
things are out of control and tea gets steeped
by the cup not the pot.
Pauli was not to blame--
he was only the messenger.
Like Einstein before him: a mere
messenger for what already was.  
Things have always 
been exactly what they are for as long as 
this universe has been.  
Fermi only gave a name to what had 
already been.  Bose only gave a name
(by mistake) to what had already been.
Awareness, says de Mello, goes
back to before things have names, when 
things just are without all our judgments
and superior egos in the way.
The bird still flies even if you do not know it
is a bird.  The leaf still flutters 
even if you do not know tree, wind, leaf, 
the changing season.  The boson still piles 
up even if you do not know it exists.
The world still has an orbit even if it feels
like you are on solid ground tethered to 
God Himself. 
It took a while
for the universe to cool enough
to produce life and even longer
for that life to get intelligent enough
to conceive of mathematical formulas
and bored enough at the patent office
to determine that energy equals
mass times the speed of light
squared. But, really, now.
Einstein did not discover anything new;
he only uncovered what was always there
and already true. Einstein uncloaked relativity.
Maybe Einstein got lucky; he
got to boldly go where no one had
ever gone before--except.
Except maybe it was really just a matter of his fermions
being in the right place at the right time to get 
published.  Maybe there'd been someone years
earlier who figured the same thing out but
couldn't get a book deal or maybe the village drinking well 
was not the best place to expound on a scientific theorem.
The students just weren't ready yet. 
But we are talking tea here, not
publishing or women carrying water jugs or 
scientists or teachers appearing nor are we talking 
space, the final frontier, 
and because of the Pauli Particle Principle,
Bach and his friends will sit quietly caught in time
on a silvery plastic disk humming, electrons buzzing
around the nucleons non-stop, Bach's own fermions long
ago transformed into something else but his bosons of 
music piling up in waves and making us cry,
and Pauli will keep us all in our separate corners of existence
until your fermions make their 
way through the bosons of space-time
and ring the doorbell just in time for tea and a movie.

(edited version; original poem written February 2010)

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Un Poeme Seulement


And there you were
again.  That same you only
better somehow, mostly
because I was so vastly
improved deep
inside myself.  (Trouble.  It
had been so much
trouble, this pushing
through the dark, tangled
woven branches of time.)  
[Say
I had a sword of flashing
gold.  
Say
I brandished it
expertly.  
Say
I made wide
swaths on my way into
and out of the
haunted forest.  
Say I was bold, say it was
easy, say I was without
fear at all.]  
All lies.
I was alone.
I faltered and fell;
I stumbled to my feet.  
I was courageous on my own.  
Surely I was defended
by invisible
warriors, multitudes surrounding me,
defeating the darkness of my history and fears.  
Celestial victory
borne of travail and purpose, no
laurels on my head,
and 
yet. Here I am
at rest, accepting, now
quiet, trusting, hope pushing
up through newly fertile soil.  And there
you were, my blurry vision
gone, finally seeing who had
been there all along.  Sovereign
welcome to see more deeply who
you are.  My gaze,
unafraid and tender, beheld
the man.  Now more real,
more imperfect, more
blithely unaware.  Now your presence
less powerful, your essence more
fragile.  I move to reach across the veil
into the mystery of God’s mercy and
grace and I draw its sheltering
fabric around your soul.   I shall tuck
you into peace.  I see
no conqueror, only my beloved,
another pilgrim on earth.  The crack
opens wider and beauty spills out.
We are wonderfully and sadly human,
always have been, and
limited by what is in
our power to change.  Precious
life indeed.  Fleeting journey through
what is into the utter unknown of
what shall be.  I am courageous
and alive; your cheek against mine,
quiet friction of eternity.  This time
no shame, no apology, no fear, no sword.
Only love, unfiltered and expressed.