the dream

inside out of myself
panic stricken and
worse
where was my littlest one?
what mother leaves her child
alone in a hospital for some procedure
and never checks back
until two days go by and
no word
no answer from the switchboard
no way to find out
guilt
fear
terror
betrayal and abandonment by
me this time
by me
zipping fast atop waves
trying to get to an airport
the airport was months away
the woman said
and she called me laura
what mother leaves her
littlest one to strangers
and goes away for fun
nagging loss will not
let me go